Friday, October 24, 2008

A Rant ...

I haven’t ranted in a while … I got fussier with what I say on this blog. But this one I felt I need to talk about.

So I’m upset. Well, maybe more sad than anything else. Indignant. And truthfully … not particularly surprised. It’s an old story, which I only just recently found out. I know what you don’t know doesn’t hurt you but I’m glad I know about it now, don’t get me wrong. But yeah, a whole lot of emotions ran and are still running through me because of what I know.

Would you be upset if someone who didn’t know you particularly well, insinuated you were ‘easy’ and voiced these thoughts to a group of people? People who would one day meet you and with whom you would interact with? I feel embarrassed more than anything else, and feel this need to explain to every person who could have heard those uncouth words way back then. But I’m glad now that those people took the time to get to know me instead of being swayed by the words that uneducated person uttered. Because they have been incredibly genuine to me all these while, it brings tears to my eyes now.

And I guess … that’s all that I can count on. That people get to know me, the real me. Because I cannot control what certain individuals, especially those that don’t know crap about me, choose to say about me. Even if they’re older than me, I know that they cannot be wiser.

I played with the idea of grouping together every person who could have been hurt by this person’s words … and exposing the person this individual really is. Wow, that would have been a big hit. A total scandal considering the popularity this individual has garnered through lies and deceit. But my parents taught me better than that - that embarrassing someone like that, no matter how seemingly-deserving is a total no-go.

So to this person, I have this to say.

I really do wish you all the best in your life, what you choose to do with it and how you choose to live it. I do hope that you will find it in your heart to one day be a good example and role model to your children, to finally make your parents proud by virtue of your character, to ease your husband’s life to eternal bliss, and to create a positive impact in everyone you meet and know, especially those who choose to open their hearts and lives to you.

So that’s it. Rant over. I’m going to be taking a break for a while … :) Life does go on, doesn’t it?


teacher jessy said...

Lia, so sorry that u r going thru such bad times! Just ignore those ppl that are saying nasty things bout u. Hugs! Hope u will feel better soon :)

Jill Deiling said...

im really sorry to hear this, please dont let these nasty things bother you! those people are nothing like you and do not deserve your friendship or even your attention! ive been through the SAME thing, so dont feel bad. im young and i have a baby, people like to make up stuff about people like me! i know who i am, and i just ignore those people. if they are going to say mean stuff without getting to know me then they arent worth my time or attention. i think youre being very mature about this, just dont worry about it, we all like you!! :)

Anonymous said...

I understand how you must be feeling. I see unhappy people everyday, who don't know squat about someone..make comments about them. Take comfort in the fact that, more than likely, the people who heard the inuendo uttered, saw the person for what she is...a gossip...and have decided themselves what and who you are.

I'm like you...If I heard something bad about me that wasn't true...I'd want to defend myself too. Best wishes to you.